I just feel like writing my thoughts this evening. I've recently had several conversations with some of my mission friends. The people in the Philippines, whom I love dearly, do not have an easy life, and sometimes it is difficult for me as I ponder the things I often take for granted that they do not have the benefit of. For example, earlier tonight I had a lengthy conversation with one of my companions. She, like so many other of my acquaintances there, is seriously struggling in a difficult world. Out of work, out of money, living in a flooded community, and trying to raise a young son while her husband searches for work on the other end of their country. It breaks my heart! As do the similar stories I hear from others I know in that area.
At times, I am just blown away by the inequalities that exist in this world. It reminds me of the same feelings I had upon first entering the mission field and coming face to face with what true poverty is. It does make me realize how blessed I am in my life, but it can be so difficult as I wonder why I have been given these blessings and so many others deprived. I am glad to know that a higher authority has it all in His hands.
As I have pondered and prayed about these things, I am quietly reminded of the counsel we have received from ordained leaders here on Earth: Pay an honest tithe and a generous fast offering. When my head is swimming with the inadequacy I feel in dealing with the trials that face my loved ones, I know that at least with this guidance, I can do my part. Although it may seem like a small amount in the light of the great need that exists in this world, at least I can feel at peace knowing that I have addressed the issue by following inspired counsel. And that does help to alleviate my worries and tears.
This isn't meant to sound like I am on some kind of soapbox - I simply felt like putting thought to paper (or to screen, I suppose) and getting these things out in the open. I love these people so dearly, and it literally tears at my heartstrings to hear of their distresses. I pray for them regularly, and I know that God has a plan at work here, although I may not always be able to see that big picture. Thanks for putting up with my rambling - it's late, and I am quite emotional (hopefully I won't regret it later), and this has been a great outlet.
So, if you are one of those struggling souls in this world (which we all are in our own way - it's the whole point of this life), I hope you also take comfort in knowing that although your loved ones might not be able to physically alleviate your distresses, they care about you, and will do what they can. Love you all!
Well, I would love to take time to write an update here, but there is so much, there just isn't time. My Facebook page has many of the crazy fun things going on in my life right now, but I will mention a couple here, just for those of you who like to look.
1. I have officially finished my Master of Education (MEd) degree...with a 4.0 GPA no less. Yay!
2. I am still teaching preschool. Old excitement.
3. I am also teaching a couple of courses for the university this year. New excitement.
4. I'm still just me!
There are lots of new pics on Facebook, too. Check me out there - I'm much more dedicated about updating things there for some reason.